I've gotten a few things done today. I took this cute picture, which is why the camera is still on the couch:
I am in a constant state of overwhelming chaos. I can't control the clutter and I always have 20 things on my to-do list. If I even bother to write it down. And if I don't lose it in the black hole that is my purse.
I have tried to corral this chaos. I signed up for FlyLady dot com about a month ago. I shined my sink. I put away my dishes. Every day, all day. It's a constant cycle. That's about as far as I could get, and I had to put aside some of my money-making work just to do that.
This is what is on my to-do list:
- try to make $30-$50 a day on crowdsourcing websites
- work on a freelance writing job I already have
- work on a couple of book chapters for the Natural Parents Network's cloth diapering book contest
- go to couponing websites to see if there are any good grocery deals this week or next
- do some meal planning for the week
- prepare a course outline for childbirth education classes
- work on a watercolor portrait painting I was commissioned to do
- create and launch a website for my portraits
- sew some slings
- sew some soakers
- meet with a friend about teaching babywearing classes
- organize and price items for yard sale this weekend
- put together the boys' Easter baskets
- start a breast milk stash for Little M; I keep planning to pump after he goes to bed, but have so much to do I forget
- exercise 10-15 minutes every day (not much, but it's a realistic start)
Oh yeah. And writing this blog post wasn't on my list, either.
I know moms do it all the time, but my question is: HOW [the F do you do it]? Big T has been sick and hasn't been sleeping, so I let him sleep in this morning while I got Baby T's lunch ready and took him to daycare. I did manage to have him clean up his toys before we left (i.e., he watched as I cleaned up his toys, meanwhile taking out 5 books from his bookshelf and throwing them on the floor). I also did clean the kitchen before I left so I wouldn't come home to a sticky mess.
But the last time I looked at the clock, it was 8:30, and I was thinking, "Cool. We'll totally get to day care before 9." And I got in the car at 8:56. It takes 20 minutes to get to day care. I was still in a white tank top with no bra on because Little M had been in the wrap all morning, and I hadn't combed my hair, brushed my teeth, or put on deoderant. At least I had the good sense to put my contacts in as soon as I woke up, before my day started.
So back to my question: If/when I go back to work, how am I going to do it without showing up completely disheveled, with a see-through shirt and no bra on? Am I honestly expected to also shower, put on makeup, and put together a business-casual outfit that's free of spitup, drool, or poo? The thought makes me want to vomit.
I can somewhat manage my days when I have the flexibility to build my own schedule. But there is no way I can get to work by 9. There is just no freaking way.
How do moms do it? Where do I start? Can I really put quality time into my two kids, work, and my extracurricular activities?
I guess this is just a big old whinefest. I don't really expect answers. Pleeeeeuuz don't tell me to go to FlyLady dot com, because that just takes way too much time. But if you feel like sending a vote of confidence, a million dollars, or a maid my way, I won't complain.